Tuesday, 28 June 2016

Thought of the day: Looking For a Job

Hey everyone!

I enjoyed writing the last 'thought of the day' post and while that was more of an information based post, this one is a lot more personal to my life. I'm currently doing an apprenticeship in Business and Administration but it finishes at the end of this week. I've been really worried about what's going to happen afterwards and I've been panicking about what I want to do. My main jobs for the past year have been to call up companies to see if our business can help them, but also to do the main admin work for the MD. While I've really enjoyed doing the admin and organisation I've pretty much hated the calling; it's just not my type of job and I'm not very good at it.

I'm the kind of person that panics about most things because I overthink things. I was scared about telling my boss that the calling wasn't for me because I was scared of what would happen. I had to plan what I was going to say so I that I'd say how I felt and not get sidetracked but when I finally told him, he was fine with it and completely understood, which made me feel great, but also made me think about how much I actually worry...

I want to find a new job within administration because that's the part I enjoy; I enjoy being organised and getting everything sorted. But so far, finding that kind of job has been really difficult. I know that everyone is saying how hard it is to find a job these days, but I had no idea how dishearting it was not to hear anything back. I finished my A levels a year ago and started my current apprenticeship a week later, so I never had a problem with looking for a job. But now, I seem to have applied for tonnes of jobs and not heard ANYTHING back, and it just makes you feel that something is wrong with you and your skills. I don't expect to get interviews for them all, or even hear back from them all, but I've applied for quite a few and heard nothing from anyone. I didn't want to do another apprenticeship because I felt like I was going backwards and stuck in the same loop, but right now my mind has changed to the idea that anything will be better than nothing and I've applied to more apprenticeships. 

I don't know if I'm being too picky with the jobs I apply for either, maybe I should just start applying for every job going? But then I feel as though I'm not aiming for something... I'm scared that I'll get messed around by a boss if I just end up going for a job that every college student usually goes for, like the disposable jobs you get in shopping centres just to fill up your time and gain a bit of extra cash. I just want to be able to find out why I'm not getting anywhere, why I'm not hearing anything back. My parents are supporting me brilliantly! While my dad is pushing me to find another job and giving me advice, he also knows that I'm struggling and is trying to help me calm down when I panic. He understands how difficult it is and isn't being harsh at all. My mom has been looking for other jobs too, for the both of us, and has been letting me know whenever anything comes up that she thinks I'd like or be interested in.

I've been looking every day for a new job and I'm trying to think of ways to fill my time while I'm still looking for one, as well as saving my cash... I'm not the type of person that's able to just sit around in my free time, I have to do something productive and have to get an end result; if I can't see my efforts at the end of it I feel as though my time has been wasted. I've gotten used to the amount I earn too, I buy a certain amount of things for myself each month but I also save my money for bigger things, like my car insurance or even longer term things, like saving for a house etc! I'm just scared that I'll end up losing that money and having to start from scratch... I just don't know what to do!

I guess I'll just have to keep on applying and waiting...

I'm sorry if this has been a boring post to read, but I wanted to include some more personal things in my life and there might be other people that are in my situation (almost certainly!). We all love a bit of gossip, and while this isn't front page news I thought it was worth sharing and I hope that it helps other people understand that I'm in the same situation.

I have my other normal beauty posts planned for the end of the week so be sure to check that out on Friday! If you're having any of the same problems, or have any advice for me, please feel free to talk to me!

Until next time...


Wednesday, 22 June 2016

ModelCo Illusion Lip Enhancer with this months GLAMOUR

I love freebies! Especially when they turn out better than you expected! I haven't bought Glamour Magazine (or any magazine for that matter) for a fair few months because I've been trying to cut down on how much I spend and I haven't seen anything that really caught my fancy. But I'm a sucker for lip products and this month I saw a lip liner that seemed a little different (maybe just the name) being offered with Glamour. So, I thought I'd treat myself and I have to say, I've been pleasantly surprised...

So this is a lip liner, or lip enhancer, from the brand ModelCo. It claims that you can enhance your lips and create a better shape for your lips as it is a skin/lip coloured pencil that gives you all the possibilities! It's one of these products that says 'One Shade Suits All', which I'm a bit skeptical of because of course, not everything suits everyone or is made for their skin tone.

When I first took it out of the box I was terrified! It looked like a beige/brown colour and I thought there would be no way that it would suit my skin tone. 

I don't have very big or full lips so I thought I'd test the claim the liner makes and tried to create a shape slightly larger than my natural lips. I focused mainly on my top lip as there isn't very much there. I found that the colour was a lot better suited to my lips than originally thought, although up close you could see a difference between my natural lip colour and where the liner had been added, but it wasn't too extreme.

From further away it's more difficult to see
the difference in colour.

The liner definitely made my lips fuller and it didn't look unnatural either! Since the colour difference would bother me slightly throughout the day I decided to fill in all of my lips, this would also give me an indication of the actual colour of the liner too. 

The colour is really good and is definitely natural! I have to say, even with my light skin tone the shade matches really well and does enhance the shape of my lips! With most liners they tend to feel dry on the lips but this doesn't seem to be the case! It doesn't feel as though I'm wearing anything on my lips and doesn't seem to wear off easily, even with eating and drinking. It's really creamy and applies smoothly to both the skin on your lips and the skin around them for enhancement. 

At £16 I'm not sure if I would repurchase this or find a cheaper alternative. But for the £2 that I spent on Glamour I definitely think I have benefited and will certainly be using this again in the future! If you're a fan of lip products or need an extra boost to your lips, I'd give this a go, especially if you can get it with this months Glamour! If you do try it, or have tried it before, please let me know how you get on with it because I'm really interested in what your views are! 
Speak to you next week!


Tuesday, 21 June 2016

Thought of the Day: How Do Cats Purr?

So, as said in my very first post, and with evidence on my Instagram feed, it's easy to see that I love cats! I love my cat and she loves when I stroke and cuddle her. She often starts purring and I've thought about how it happens. Well! Today is the day I find out how the purring occurs and I thought it would be a good idea to share it with you!

Friday, 17 June 2016

DEADPOOL Inspired Makeup Look!

So Deadpool is now out on DVD. Wooo! If you haven't seen Deadpool yet, where have you been?! You NEED to see this film it is amazing! But back on subject, I thought it would be a good idea to create a Deadpool inspired makeup look! I've tried this look out quite a few times and I really love it! Even though it's more of a dramatic look, I tend to wear it on a normal, everyday basis, as my job doesn't require me to be all suited up! So lets get into it!

Monday, 13 June 2016

Download Festival 2016 In Pictures!

So Download Festival for this year has been and gone! This was my second year and if I'm honest, it's been pretty similar in terms of weather! Sunburn for the first 2 days and heavy rain for the weekend when the bands are playing! (Typical, ay!) I thought it would be a good idea to make a quick post with my highlights and events of the weekend, so here are some pictures to remember the weekend by!

We got to Donnington around 8pm on the Wednesday, so by the time we found a place to camp and we had set our tent up, we were ready to relax for the night!...

Thursday, 9 June 2016

Quick Review: Yankee Candle's 'Clean Cotton' Tart

While I do have a thing for beauty, I'm also a lover of candles! There's just something about walking into a nice smelling room that makes you proud of your house and feel comforted. I have many different tastes in scents but the weather outside and how I'm feeling does influence which candles I choose. Because it has been so fresh recently I thought it would be nice to have a clean scent in the house and I have been loving the wax tart Clean Cotton from Yankee Candle. I adore Yankee Candles and their wax melts are my favourite, as their scent seems to last a lot longer than the candles. 
Clean cotton smells like it should and smells like freshly washed clothes drying outside in a breeze. It smells like clothes when they've just been bought in from the cool air outside. I love the smell and it does just make the whole room smell clean (great for when you have a smelly bedroom... totally NOT me...).
These wax melts kick off a good scent, and once you own the burner, the melts themselves are incredibly cheap and last for such a long time! I definitely recommend this melt because it makes for a great everyday scent. It isn't overpowering and just smells fresh.


Friday, 3 June 2016

Packing for Download Festival

So I'm sat here listening to my Babymetal Metal Resistance vinyl and it dawned on me that Download Festival is LESS THAN A WEEK AWAY! Best start getting my sh*t together then! I thought it would be a good idea to create a post on what to take!

I've only been to Download once before, and that was last year. I can honestly say that it changed my life! It helped influence what bands I listen to during the year; introduced me to new bands and it also helped me meet some new friends too! When I went last year I took everything I thought I'd need and it turned out that I took WAY too much and also forgot some essentials. So here are a few things that I think are necessary, based on my experience last year.

Thursday, 2 June 2016

Welcome to my blog!

Welcome to my new blog! For the past few years I have been blogging on-and-off and I thought it was time to start anew and try to keep my posts more frequent and interesting! I thought to start off it might be a good idea to share some facts with you, and discuss what this blog will be about. So here goes!

My name is Sally and I'm (currently, on 02/06/2016) 19 years old. I have a cat (Tess) and a dog (Toby), both of which I adore. If you follow me - darkeowl - on Instagram *hint hint* you will see endless pictures of my animals but you will also see many beauty and makeup related posts. I'm a lover of rock and metal and going to gigs is one of my main hobbies.

Primarily, this will be a beauty and lifestyle blog. Beauty and makeup are some of the main things I enjoy and it's what my previous blog used to be about too. Although I would like to focus on these areas when posting, I do want to incorporate some of my more general everyday life into this blog too, because I think it will allow me to post more frequently, and I hope it will help me find more people that have the same views and interests as me! 

I also have a YouTube channel, which I hope to include in some of my posts, but because I currently work and spend a lot of time with friends and family, it makes it difficult to find time to record and edit them. But if you continue to read my blog, keep your eyes peeled for some possible videos!

All in all, I just hope that I stick with posting and that you will stay with me on my journey! If you ever want to ask anything, please feel free to ask me, or if any of you just want to talk, I'm always up for a chat! 

Speak to you soon